I have used up a box of tissues.  Seriously.  Yeah, not very sexy at all.  Thankfully I didn't have to see any clients today but tomorrow we are fully booked.  Not that I didn't work today, I was doing books.  However, I could blow my nose at every possible moment, without fearing that I would send the clients running!

Taking paracetamol sucks too.  To me it does pretty much the same as drinking milk.  Jay is still not better.  Zander isn't 100 % yet either.  We will get there though!

Why is it that you crave all kinds of bad foods when you feel sick?  I think I could finish off a whole batch of chocolate chip cookies all by myself tonight.  *I have had three already .... I could just as well finish it all right?*

I need to make something to eat for the family tonight.  I'm sure they won't mind having coffee and cookies?  I mean they are all boys.  Boys like to eat.  Chocolate is good....mmm..yes chocolate....cookies...coffee.  See they all start with a C.  It was meant to be!!!

The sick one

Today is one of those days where nothing much has happened, except for normal daily life.... let's see.

• Jason is still home from school.  Headaches are still not gone and his eyes are giving away that he is not well.
• My dear Quintus lost money that I put into his schoolbag for his music lessons.  Well, I don't know if he lost it or what happened to it but the bottom line is that it the music teacher doesn't have it and I don't have it either.  I'll be sending the money with again tomorrow.
• Zander isn't feeling too good either.  Although you wouldn't really say so by looking at him.  He's a good patient.
• The bug has found it's way to me as well.  It can move right along as far as I'm concerned.
• I took my Mother's rings in this afternoon to have them put together. Not that easy to lose one big ring.  Let's hope he doesn't mess up the sequence lol
• Can I just say what a relief it is to do work at home.  It just takes so much stress of me.
• A huge congratulations to my cousin Jules and family.  Her little (well, little is relative) 4.1 kg daughter was born this afternoon.  She is the first great-granddaughter to my grandfather.  She is also the first daughter in her father's family in 108 years!

Jason came to me this afternoon with tears in his eyes.  Now this is my son who hardly ever cries.  He gets upset, he will cry in anger.  Mostly though, not the deep quiet emotional cry.

He wanted to know what happens when you die.  I explained that we go to heaven when we die.  He wanted to know if you come back to earth once you die and I said no.  Once you go to heaven you stay there with Jesus.  I was assuming at this stage that he was talking about older people dying.  I was talking to him with that mind set.  Trying to put his mind at ease about people dying and going to heaven.  He wanted to know when people die.  If it happens when they are old.  I explained that Jesus decides when we will die.  When he wants us to join him.

He then said these words that makes any parent's heart stop for a while "Mommy, I don't want to die.  I don't want to go to heaven.  I'm scared of going to heaven.  I won't like it in heaven.  I'll be all alone."

I sat with him on my lap.  I told him that he won't be alone if he went to heaven.   That we will all see each other there.  He kept on asking me what is in heaven...will he be able to talk.  Will he be able to walk.  All this while crying, sobbing. He told me that going to sleep is the same as dying.   I explained that it is not but I'm sure this will lie heavily on his heart the next few nights when he goes to sleep.

Man it was hard.  Just even thinking of losing one of my kids makes my blood run cold.  Literally.  Dear Lord may that never happen to me.  May my boys all have a long and healthy life.  May I be around at least until they are old enough to work through grieve and understand.

Today has been hard.  On my little scared boy and me.

I have two sick boys at home this morning.  Tommie took Quintus to the golf course with him, while I have Zander and Jason home.  Zander woke up with a nose that looks pretty much like a tap filled with - well you know.  Poor kid is not happy.  Nursing is not easy and he can't suck on his dummy (pacifier), so he is not happy.

Jason at least doesn't have a fever but he is still complaing of a headache.  He is passed out on the couch.   He hasn't eaten for the past 3 days.  Only thing he will have is Milo.  So I'm giving him lots of it.

With the sickies I have missed out on my Wimpy breakfast this morning!!  I'd much rather have my boys healthy though.

Here's two pics of my youngest, enjoying his own company.

My poor computer has needed to be laid to rest for a while now.  I kept holding on though, not allowing him to blow out it's last breath (or make it's last start-up)  You can ask the Wench about the colour on my screen.  She was filled with fear when she saw what she looks like through my computer screen.  The errors that I get on a daily basis would make any IT tech run.

I fear new computers lol  It's not that I don't want a new computer.  It's just that I fear everything I'll lose.  The time it will take me to set everything up again.  Yes, very much unlike the Gemini I am. 

However, my FIL has been promising me a laptop for while.  See I could really use one for work.  I will then be able to take work home.  Not having to feel as though I'm constantly drowning in my work. If I can only work an hour at night and a few over the weekend, it could already help me with my work load.

Well, today he came through on his promise and I am now the proud owner of a laptop (notebook the Americans call it?)  It didn't take at all as long as I thought it would to set it all up.  Although there were few moments of stress. 

While setting up my programs were no problem, I battled to set up my internet.  The room went quiet.  Everyone breathed more slowly and then...there...the green light came up and all was well in the de Bruyn household again.!!!

Of course having this laptop would mean that I actually have to work at home lol  I can't use that as an excuse anymore!

• We spent our morning at rugby again.  Quintus' team won all their games again.  They are really just brilliant.  They all play with such conviction.  Such heart.
• Jason was so sick last night. He had a fever of 40.6 degrees (105.08 degree Fahrenheit)  I managed to bring it down, without having to rush off to hospital.
• I had him at the doctor yesterday, who said that it is most probably sinusitis.  He is still complaining of headache.  He thankfully doesn't have a stiff neck (which I check for regularly)
• Tommie has wanted a fax/printer/scanner thing for our home for a while.  He also bought one of those today. 
• Oh and I can finally say goodbye to Windows 98 that I've been using at home!
• My desk now looks like a computer shop - what with my old computer, notebook and printer.  Plus all the other paraphernalia that goes with a new computer.
• Tommie has set up the play station on a separate TV.  The boys are now playing playstation right here by me, while he can still watch TV.  Like I said, all is well in the de Bruyn household.
• Also Jason can now play his paint game on my old computer.  Mmm...yip...all is indeed well in the de Bruyn household.