I only noticed last night that I could actually put in any date that I want.  So I decided to re-write my handwritten journal here.  So the "new" post are actually all old!

What a week.  I found out on Monday that I only have 50 % hearing in my right ear.  That my eardrum is calcifying and that the hole in my ear (from when the eardrum burst) is still there.  The doctor said that they would have to operate at the end of the month.  I'm not looking forward to that!

Our computers at work has crashed one by one.  I'm so behind with my work.  There is just no way that I can get it all done, in between seeing the clients and not having a full time secretary.  I'm feeling extremely stressed.

Things have been so good between me and Tommie these days.  That is of course till tonight.  He promised to be home just after 6 pm - it is now 9 pm and he is still not home.  I'm so tired of all his broken promises.  His pathetic excuses.  Once again, I have to take care of the boys by myself.

I feel as though I'm not the mom I used to be.  It might be because we are still not sleeping well, because of the stress at work, too little time, even winter (as we don't get to go play outside, like we enjoy doing).  I want it to be like it used to be.  I just have to make more time for the boys.  They deserve the best.

Since becoming a mother, I have been very focused on being a MOM and never really working on ME any more.  As I would be turning 30 next year, I started feeling more and more that I have not become what I had hoped I would by that time.  I had studied hard to receive my degree, but felt that I hardly ever used it.  This year though, so much have changed.  Becoming a member of the CFA has opened the doors for me to use my degree in business with my dad.  I did a certificate course through UNISA that I got 80 % for... proving to myself that I can still study (LOL).  I also made some awesome friends this year. I have forgotten just how important true friendship really is.  I have regained my respect for my body and after losing 24 kg, feel confident and comfortable with myself again.
I feel complete, fulfilled and very happy with the way this year has turned out.